Posts Tagged ‘target’

My Pregnancy: Week 24

Monday, February 1st, 2016

week 24I have a bent toward minimalism. I previously shared my inclination toward being low-key and keeping minimalism or just plain practicality in mind when it comes to babies. I, of course, must admit my deep love of Target with its perky red walls, coupon apps, and tidy surroundings. My preschooler knows when we pull into the “bullseye store” an icee may soon arrive in his hands, a special treat. Walking its aisles on Saturday morning while hubby is hanging out with the kids at home brings deep, indescribable satisfaction to my soul.

Let’s get back to minimalism though. With the first pregnancy the excitement of it all is quite overwhelming. I am, to clear the air, very excited about this third pregnancy. It’s different though. The newness of everything isn’t dampened but rather more relaxed. Like my doctor said about this pregnancy so many weeks ago, it’s not my first rodeo. When asked what we “need,” I can say essentially nothing. Maybe some patience if you have some to spare. In general people are looking for more tangible things. At family’s request I put together a registry at the bullseye store for treats.

While my heart beats strongest for simplicity, I also like giving others the opportunity to celebrate in this pregnancy. I think celebrating in pregnancy does not require gifts, and many of them agree. But gifts are fun, and I don’t want to take away from their chance to give in the way they enjoy. Plus we don’t have many pink or purple things that the boys wore. Adding a few of those to our collection is useful to replace the “little buck” and other gender-specific clothing we paid forward to another family.

This minimalist bent also comes out in my excitement of it all. I don’t do big sex or gender reveals, intricate pregnancy announcements, or overly creative portraiture to capture my growing belly bump. Again, I’ve nothing against people who invest their time in these endeavors if they bring satisfaction and enjoyment to their hearts. All those things make me feel very tired. Hubby and I announced our first pregnancy to Facebook friends by changing our profile pictures to a snapshot of a bottle of Preggo brand spaghetti sauce. Most of them knew anyway. Done.

This also speaks on the subject of milestones. Maybe I’m now speaking not so much of minimalism as familiarity. As we’ve been pregnant before we already know most of the ins and outs of it. My pregnancies have all been typical or “normal,” so I refresh my mind each week by scanning an article on baby’s development this week. Otherwise though, I find my thoughts pretty chill. I remember staying up late with the previous pregnancies research single strollers, then double strollers, car seats, cloth diapers, carriers, and more. In part, I don’t have to do that now as I’ve already done that legwork in previous pregnancies. Now the word that comes to mind is abide. I am soaking in the presence of this baby in all the most wonderful ways I can, biding my time until this last little one arrives.

Annie is a mom of two toddlers finding joy in the simple kick in her belly, the tightening of her waistband. 

To the Girl at Target

Tuesday, September 1st, 2015

To the Girl at TargetDear girl/young woman at Target today who said, “Ugh, I will NEVER let kids ruin my life like that,”

Yes, I heard you. I think you wanted me to. My four-year-old heard you and looked at me in confusion, to which I responded with just a smile, hug and told her I loved her. I wasn’t embarrassed, and she didnt need to be either.

Targetgirl, I’m not mad at you, so I’m not going to yell. I’m not even holding hurt feelings for myself. Instead, I just feel a little sorry for you. No, I’m not going to be one of “those” people and spew the cliche phrases that one day you will change your mind or that its different when they’re yours. Because I dont know you. I’ve always wanted to be a mom, you may not have been that way. I feel sorry for you for your inability to recognize that all women are different. We arent suckered in to motherhood, and it isnt a punishment.

Targetgirl, my kids didnt ruin my life. They didnt derail my plans, They arent my burden, or my jail. And any “life ruining” that happened in my life was done by my own accord, not theirs. Any undone plans were put on hold by me, not them. Anything I didnt do before them wasn’t done because of ME. I could have done them but my own choices, both good and bad, stopped me. And that’s okay. I’m only a week away from being 30, I have plenty of time. What’s better is I have plenty of time with them.

Targetgirl, my kids didn’t ruin my life because they ARE my life. They are the reason I live and breathe every day, the reason I work, the reason I strive to be healthy, the reason I want to help other moms and women–for the world they will inherit.

HildeTargetgirl, yep, my kids were being assholes. And you know what? That’s okay. I can be an asshole too, and as you showed today, you can certainly be an asshole. The only difference between us and them is that we’ve had years to learn how to be assholes in a more…socially acceptable way. We can communicate, control our bodies and emotions better, and understand WHY we want to be an asshole that day–that’s it! To be a human being, no matter what age, is to have jerk moments. Its just part of it.

So, Targetgirl, I’m sorry you think my kids ruined my life. Because despite my crazy hair and messy clothes from renovating my bathroom, I’m actually pretty stinking happy. I’m exhausted, broke, often touched out, and half crazy most days, but I’m happy. And if you dont ever want to be a mom, that is okay–I get it! Some women don’t want to be, and they should never be forced to be one. There are plenty of ways to prevent being a mom.
But, Targetgirl, just keep in mind. Just because YOU don’t want to be a mom, it doesnt mean that no woman wants to be one.

My kids didnt ruin my life. My life is good.

-Frizzy blonde Target chick

Bethany Cowin is a mother of two girls, hippie homemaker and soap maker. She lives in Fort Worth, Texas.